I needed to get back to blogging. I was really good at journaling during my senior year of high school when I was first handed a bound book of paper and told to write. When I started actually blogging in college I was pretty good at it, and kept up with it for the most part after college. I knew my family out in Arizona read it, if no one else did, and I knew that's how they kept up with me. It was just another outlet for me to write. Between writing in my journal and blogging I had an excellent outlet for stress and anxiety and happiness and just about ever other emotion under the sun. It was great!
And then I got distracted. Honestly, it was a little more complicated than that, but in order to simplify it into one short phrase, "I got distracted" is the best possible way to express what I went through. It wasn't just one thing. It was a combination of things. Somethings I had no control over whatsoever. Somethings I did have control over and refused to even acknowledge its presence. And then there were somethings I look back and wonder, "What the hell was that all about?" I let a void open up in my life, but instead of filling it with the truth and love of God I filled it with the things of this earth. It's not the first time that's happened, but usually when it does happen a little journaling or a little blogging will help put my mind back into focus and get things right again. But like I said, I got distracted. There was no journaling...there was no blogging...beyond the "here's what I've been doing lately" fluff stuff.
So, when 2010 finally ended and 2011 began I knew a change was in order. Everything else had changed. I quit my old job at the warehouse, I decided to start nursing school and actually went through with it, and I was beginning to take the first steps toward putting myself back on that path of righteousness. And what better way to help with those steps, then going back to the very thing that helped me so many years ago...writing.
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